7. January 2010 by Katey.

those eyes haunt me like i’m the only thing alive
i told myself i was done with this
3-4 months is far to long to love someone who doesn’t love you back
you said you wouldn’t hurt me
you’ve said you were ready so many times.
i even remember when you said i love you
but i guess no of that matters
i’ll see you tomorrow
and wish i had you
i’ll think of you the next day
and hate myself for losing you
but i’ll dream of you everynight
and be happy that you were in my life at some point
because with out you i wouldn’t know what to watch out for
without you i wouldn’t know that love is real
without you i would have something to think of
before i go to sleep
and something to
wake up dreaming of
i’ll always love you

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13. August 2009 by Katey.

How do I tell you how I feel about you

everytime i think of you my body shakes
everytime i see you my knees grow weak and
everytime i’m with you i dont want the time to end.

everytime i look into your eyes, i wish i was there
everytime i see you smile my heart melts and
every night before i go to sleep i pray we dont end.

I’ve tried somehow to say:
you’re the sun that lights up my sky
the wind that keeps me cool on a hot summer day
and sweet incense that keeps me on a natural high

I want so much to tell you:
that without you with me each day my day isn’t complete
that since day one I’ve always wanted to be with you
that no matter what’s going on in my life
you’re the reason there’s a smile on my face
and that loving you seems to be all I need to know.

But everytime I want to
the words just wont come out
to you it may sound mushy or too cute
you may not believe it so it’s better I keep my mouth closed

Then to try to tell you exactly whats on my mind
yet I wish to tell you that I’m beginning to
love you more with each passing of the day
and that I want to be with you
come whatever may.

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13. August 2009 by Katey.

I know that no one wanted this to happen to you. No one ever thought this is how it would end. You were such an amazing boy Codi. You just wanted to make everyone happy and care for every single person. You had a heart of gold and nothing less. I just want you to understand that your made such am impact on this world. And no one ever wanted you to leave. But everything happens for a reason. Mistakes are made. And we all wish we could turn back time and bring you back. But we cant. Thats just it. You turned so many peoples frowns into smiles. You made so many peoples days and it was a complet gift to be your friend. All these tears that we have cried could drown the world. And all of this pain could kill a life time. I know your happy where you are. And your presents follows all of us. We just really love you Codi. No one every expected this to happen. And i dont see how anyone could ever hate a boy like you. You really showed me the true meaning of friendship. You really made a diffrence in my life and so many other peoples. I know that for a fact i will never look at life the same. I really wont. It’s just so hard to realize that your goan.. but your still with us and you will forever be with us. Life is one thins;; unpredictable. And sometimes the worst things happen to the best people. But lifes a show.. Life a journey and you will always be with us in our journey. Codi we love you and we miss you.
<3

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14. July 2009 by Katey.

1. List some things you want to say to 12 different people but you know you never will.
2. Don’t say who they are.
3. Feel free to comment, but don’t confirm or answer anything.
4. Never discuss it again.

1– Number one, lets see here, we probably wont ever talk again. & im fine with that. you helped me to become who i am today. we’ve had so many great times together, and even though you put me through a lot of crap i dont regret meeting you at all.

2– i know you will never read this & thats probably why im writing this. i cannot even explain the extent of how much i dont like you. all my life you have been there to tell me every little thing wrong with me. & im sick of it. im sick of you. you truly are evil & i do believe one day you will get what you deserve. i hope that one day you will realize how you have hurt me & that, that day will help you mark the kind of person you have been.

3– on a brighter note, lets talk about number three. i never knew you all that well. but you knew me. you were just so easy to talk to. but now we havent talked in about half a year. =[ you never knew this but you changed my life in so many ways. you stopped me from doing something that i most definitally would have regretted, & that is why you are probably one of thee greatest people i have met in my life. & one day i will tell you this, i doubt that you will care, but you mean more to me than you could ever guess.

4– you are one of my best friends. but you have been moving away from me lately & i hate that. we have so many inside jokes that we can have a whole conversations & the people around us are like wtf? you make me laugh so incredible hard when your not even trying to. we do the most random stuff when we are together. i cant even imagine how i could have gotten through sixth, & seventh without you, but i might have to find out what its like in eight & highschool. but i REALLY hope i dont have to. ily so much. =]

5– first off let me say i love you to death. you have gotten me through the hardest times. i have no idea how you do it & i honestly can not see myself without you. whenever i need you, you’re there, & i hope you know the same goes for you. i always wonder how you can like read my mind, when something is up you can always tell. you have been moving forward in your life & i couldnt be more happy for you, you deserve to be happy & sometimes i think that you forget that. but i sort of miss the old days. i heart you.

6– you would probably be very surprized that i put you in here. some days i love you, others i hate you. but i always look up to you. i have no idea why, your a complete geek with way too big of an imagination. but you have been through many of the same things i have. and im still amazed at how well you handle it all. i really admire how strong you are, but being strong sometimes isnt always the best thing, i will ALWAYS be here for you, i dont know if you know that but i will be.

7– okay, everyone will know who you are. lets see your amazing, completely amazing. i dont know what it is about you but everytime i look at you i have to smile. you are my absolute best friend.if i were to lose you, i would lose myself, because you have filled everything in me that was so empty before. you changed my life, no doubt about it. never once in my life did i think it was possible to find someone like you & when i did find you, i never thought i would actually GET you. =] i dont know how long we will be this close for, but what you mean to me is indescribable. id do anything for you. please remember that. & please remember i will always love you, always. even if it isnt the same kind of love as it is now; it will always be here. anytime you need it. dont forget that. ever.

8- You, you, gosh, i dont even know how to write about you. all good stuff, thats fur sure. =] some people cant figure how we are friends. & honestly, i cant either; we just click on some odd level. but if i hadnt met you; in the weirdest way might i add; then i would be missing out on getting to know one of the most wonderful person in the world. you have so much potential, but you dont live up to it. which is dissappointing, you could be something great, not that you arent already, just put in a little effort & trust me; you could rule the world. & that would be one fucking fun world. =] i love yah kiddo.

9- Your turn. lets see here; together; we’re crazy. do you know who you are? i admit sometimes you can be a little mean & a little too honest; but that isnt always a bad thing. you have been here for me, and i appreciate that, I APPREICIATE YOU! i have a feeling you arent told that enough. its true a lot of people dont like you; but hun, THEY ARE MISSING OUT! just remember; there is someone out here that loves you more than you can imagine.

10- You know who you are. you know everything about me. way more than i know about myself. i’ve taken you for granted; i’ve done horrible things to you. but you’re still here. you’re always here. sometimes i cant figure how you still love me, but you do, you always will. a lot of the times it seems like you’ve messed up my life, that you’re cruel. but you arent. i’ve always known that. i knew you werent doing those things because you were punishing me; but because you were testing me; making me stronger. i’m sorry if i lie to you, im sorry if i ignore you, im sorry if i push you away, & im sorry if i disobey you. you are more important to me than ANYTHING. absoutley anything. so maybe i should start acting like it. i love you; i swear i do.

11- We met under really werid curcumstances. actually; we havent offically met. maybe my life would be better if i never did meet you. but i guess ill never know & truthfully; i dont want to find out. things happened. they werent your fault & you telling me was the right thing. im very glad you did. no regrets on this end. you are such a nice person, you really are. you know the line between right and wrong & for many of us; that line has faded. dont ever change anything about yourself, please? you’re perfect the way you are. & stay out of trouble. =]

12- This spot is currently reserved. for whom? well im not really sure. change my life; then it will be you.

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13. June 2009 by Katey.

He means so much to me, he don’t understand, the things Id do for him, everything I can. I’m worried about our relationship because we always fight. I’m worried I might not be doing this thing rite. I think it’s love, the feeling is deep inside and every thing needs to be let, with nothing to hide. But then again what is love? Have I ever really been there before..? The feeling for him comes when I’m crying at night, because I really do care. I cry every night after another argument, because I’m so afraid of where every thing went. I don’t want to loose him any more,he’s all I have left. He makes me laugh, he make me smile, and I love seeing him glad. He’s me best friend and my lover and I just want him to know that I do care about him Even though my feelings don’t always show. After another argument I always think of giving up, but then I realize what I have, and think how could I throw away the greatest friendship in the world.

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1. November 2008 by Katey.

i wish i could go back
back to when you left
tell you i love you and wont forget
forget the memories we shared
everyday i was there
i will never see you again
and as your niece
i promise i will miss you
miss you more everyday
everyday your not there
you where always there
and now your not anywhere
i would give anything to see you
and say just one word [goodbye]
so goodbye to you
i love you forever

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28. October 2008 by Katey.

Will you turn my world upside-down?
Will you wake up next to me?
You seem to be like some kind of dream
Will you break my heart and leave?
I don’t think you’ll break my heart and leave, but i’ve been wrong before.
Will you be the one who holds my hand, the one that hugs me when i’m cold, and the one that kisses my forehead before i go to bed.
Will you be the one i walk down the aisle with?
Be the one i sit next to for the rest of my life, the one i’ll grow old with.
Will you be the one that i love for eternity and even longer ?
But most of all will you be the one that takes my hand and kisses me on the forehead and tell me everything is going to be alright and that you’ll love me and hold me in your arms forever.

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27. October 2008 by Katey.

What every kiss means

~Kiss on the stomach = I’m ready

~Kiss on the Forehead = I hope we’re together forever

~Kiss on the Ear = Your my everything

~Kiss on the Cheek = You look so cute

~Kiss on the Hand = I adore you

~Kiss on the Neck = We belong together

~Kiss on the Shoulder = I want you

~Kiss on the Lips = I LOVE U

What the gesture means…

~Holding Hands = We definitely like each other

~Slap on the butt = That’s mine

~Holding on tight = I don’t want to let go

~Looking into each other’s Eyes = I just plain LOVE

~Playing with Hair = Tell me you love me

~Arms around the Waist = I love you too much to let go

~Laughing while Kissing = I am completely comfortable with you
***Advice***

*Dont ask for a kiss, take one.*

**If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you’re definitely in Love.**

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