12 things

14. July 2009 by Katey.

1. List some things you want to say to 12 different people but you know you never will.
2. Don’t say who they are.
3. Feel free to comment, but don’t confirm or answer anything.
4. Never discuss it again.

1– Number one, lets see here, we probably wont ever talk again. & im fine with that. you helped me to become who i am today. we’ve had so many great times together, and even though you put me through a lot of crap i dont regret meeting you at all.

2– i know you will never read this & thats probably why im writing this. i cannot even explain the extent of how much i dont like you. all my life you have been there to tell me every little thing wrong with me. & im sick of it. im sick of you. you truly are evil & i do believe one day you will get what you deserve. i hope that one day you will realize how you have hurt me & that, that day will help you mark the kind of person you have been.

3– on a brighter note, lets talk about number three. i never knew you all that well. but you knew me. you were just so easy to talk to. but now we havent talked in about half a year. =[ you never knew this but you changed my life in so many ways. you stopped me from doing something that i most definitally would have regretted, & that is why you are probably one of thee greatest people i have met in my life. & one day i will tell you this, i doubt that you will care, but you mean more to me than you could ever guess.

4– you are one of my best friends. but you have been moving away from me lately & i hate that. we have so many inside jokes that we can have a whole conversations & the people around us are like wtf? you make me laugh so incredible hard when your not even trying to. we do the most random stuff when we are together. i cant even imagine how i could have gotten through sixth, & seventh without you, but i might have to find out what its like in eight & highschool. but i REALLY hope i dont have to. ily so much. =]

5– first off let me say i love you to death. you have gotten me through the hardest times. i have no idea how you do it & i honestly can not see myself without you. whenever i need you, you’re there, & i hope you know the same goes for you. i always wonder how you can like read my mind, when something is up you can always tell. you have been moving forward in your life & i couldnt be more happy for you, you deserve to be happy & sometimes i think that you forget that. but i sort of miss the old days. i heart you.

6– you would probably be very surprized that i put you in here. some days i love you, others i hate you. but i always look up to you. i have no idea why, your a complete geek with way too big of an imagination. but you have been through many of the same things i have. and im still amazed at how well you handle it all. i really admire how strong you are, but being strong sometimes isnt always the best thing, i will ALWAYS be here for you, i dont know if you know that but i will be.

7– okay, everyone will know who you are. lets see your amazing, completely amazing. i dont know what it is about you but everytime i look at you i have to smile. you are my absolute best friend.if i were to lose you, i would lose myself, because you have filled everything in me that was so empty before. you changed my life, no doubt about it. never once in my life did i think it was possible to find someone like you & when i did find you, i never thought i would actually GET you. =] i dont know how long we will be this close for, but what you mean to me is indescribable. id do anything for you. please remember that. & please remember i will always love you, always. even if it isnt the same kind of love as it is now; it will always be here. anytime you need it. dont forget that. ever.

8- You, you, gosh, i dont even know how to write about you. all good stuff, thats fur sure. =] some people cant figure how we are friends. & honestly, i cant either; we just click on some odd level. but if i hadnt met you; in the weirdest way might i add; then i would be missing out on getting to know one of the most wonderful person in the world. you have so much potential, but you dont live up to it. which is dissappointing, you could be something great, not that you arent already, just put in a little effort & trust me; you could rule the world. & that would be one fucking fun world. =] i love yah kiddo.

9- Your turn. lets see here; together; we’re crazy. do you know who you are? i admit sometimes you can be a little mean & a little too honest; but that isnt always a bad thing. you have been here for me, and i appreciate that, I APPREICIATE YOU! i have a feeling you arent told that enough. its true a lot of people dont like you; but hun, THEY ARE MISSING OUT! just remember; there is someone out here that loves you more than you can imagine.

10- You know who you are. you know everything about me. way more than i know about myself. i’ve taken you for granted; i’ve done horrible things to you. but you’re still here. you’re always here. sometimes i cant figure how you still love me, but you do, you always will. a lot of the times it seems like you’ve messed up my life, that you’re cruel. but you arent. i’ve always known that. i knew you werent doing those things because you were punishing me; but because you were testing me; making me stronger. i’m sorry if i lie to you, im sorry if i ignore you, im sorry if i push you away, & im sorry if i disobey you. you are more important to me than ANYTHING. absoutley anything. so maybe i should start acting like it. i love you; i swear i do.

11- We met under really werid curcumstances. actually; we havent offically met. maybe my life would be better if i never did meet you. but i guess ill never know & truthfully; i dont want to find out. things happened. they werent your fault & you telling me was the right thing. im very glad you did. no regrets on this end. you are such a nice person, you really are. you know the line between right and wrong & for many of us; that line has faded. dont ever change anything about yourself, please? you’re perfect the way you are. & stay out of trouble. =]

12- This spot is currently reserved. for whom? well im not really sure. change my life; then it will be you.

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