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7. January 2010 by Katey.
those eyes haunt me like i’m the only thing alive
i told myself i was done with this
3-4 months is far to long to love someone who doesn’t love you back
you said you wouldn’t hurt me
you’ve said you were ready so many times.
i even remember when you said i love you
but i guess no of that matters
i’ll see you tomorrow
and wish i had you
i’ll think of you the next day
and hate myself for losing you
but i’ll dream of you everynight
and be happy that you were in my life at some point
because with out you i wouldn’t know what to watch out for
without you i wouldn’t know that love is real
without you i would have something to think of
before i go to sleep
and something to
wake up dreaming of
i’ll always love you
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13. August 2009 by Katey.
How do I tell you how I feel about you
everytime i think of you my body shakes
everytime i see you my knees grow weak and
everytime i’m with you i dont want the time to end.
everytime i look into your eyes, i wish i was there
everytime i see you smile my heart melts and
every night before i go to sleep i pray we dont end.
I’ve tried somehow to say:
you’re the sun that lights up my sky
the wind that keeps me cool on a hot summer day
and sweet incense that keeps me on a natural high
I want so much to tell you:
that without you with me each day my day isn’t complete
that since day one I’ve always wanted to be with you
that no matter what’s going on in my life
you’re the reason there’s a smile on my face
and that loving you seems to be all I need to know.
But everytime I want to
the words just wont come out
to you it may sound mushy or too cute
you may not believe it so it’s better I keep my mouth closed
Then to try to tell you exactly whats on my mind
yet I wish to tell you that I’m beginning to
love you more with each passing of the day
and that I want to be with you
come whatever may.
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13. August 2009 by Katey.
I know that no one wanted this to happen to you. No one ever thought this is how it would end. You were such an amazing boy Codi. You just wanted to make everyone happy and care for every single person. You had a heart of gold and nothing less. I just want you to understand that your made such am impact on this world. And no one ever wanted you to leave. But everything happens for a reason. Mistakes are made. And we all wish we could turn back time and bring you back. But we cant. Thats just it. You turned so many peoples frowns into smiles. You made so many peoples days and it was a complet gift to be your friend. All these tears that we have cried could drown the world. And all of this pain could kill a life time. I know your happy where you are. And your presents follows all of us. We just really love you Codi. No one every expected this to happen. And i dont see how anyone could ever hate a boy like you. You really showed me the true meaning of friendship. You really made a diffrence in my life and so many other peoples. I know that for a fact i will never look at life the same. I really wont. It’s just so hard to realize that your goan.. but your still with us and you will forever be with us. Life is one thins;; unpredictable. And sometimes the worst things happen to the best people. But lifes a show.. Life a journey and you will always be with us in our journey. Codi we love you and we miss you.
<3
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14. July 2009 by Katey.
1. List some things you want to say to 12 different people but you know you never will.
2. Don’t say who they are.
3. Feel free to comment, but don’t confirm or answer anything.
4. Never discuss it again.
1– Number one, lets see here, we probably wont ever talk again. & im fine with that. you helped me to become who i am today. we’ve had so many great times together, and even though you put me through a lot of crap i dont regret meeting you at all.
2– i know you will never read this & thats probably why im writing this. i cannot even explain the extent of how much i dont like you. all my life you have been there to tell me every little thing wrong with me. & im sick of it. im sick of you. you truly are evil & i do believe one day you will get what you deserve. i hope that one day you will realize how you have hurt me & that, that day will help you mark the kind of person you have been.
3– on a brighter note, lets talk about number three. i never knew you all that well. but you knew me. you were just so easy to talk to. but now we havent talked in about half a year. =[ you never knew this but you changed my life in so many ways. you stopped me from doing something that i most definitally would have regretted, & that is why you are probably one of thee greatest people i have met in my life. & one day i will tell you this, i doubt that you will care, but you mean more to me than you could ever guess.
4– you are one of my best friends. but you have been moving away from me lately & i hate that. we have so many inside jokes that we can have a whole conversations & the people around us are like wtf? you make me laugh so incredible hard when your not even trying to. we do the most random stuff when we are together. i cant even imagine how i could have gotten through sixth, & seventh without you, but i might have to find out what its like in eight & highschool. but i REALLY hope i dont have to. ily so much. =]
5– first off let me say i love you to death. you have gotten me through the hardest times. i have no idea how you do it & i honestly can not see myself without you. whenever i need you, you’re there, & i hope you know the same goes for you. i always wonder how you can like read my mind, when something is up you can always tell. you have been moving forward in your life & i couldnt be more happy for you, you deserve to be happy & sometimes i think that you forget that. but i sort of miss the old days. i heart you.
6– you would probably be very surprized that i put you in here. some days i love you, others i hate you. but i always look up to you. i have no idea why, your a complete geek with way too big of an imagination. but you have been through many of the same things i have. and im still amazed at how well you handle it all. i really admire how strong you are, but being strong sometimes isnt always the best thing, i will ALWAYS be here for you, i dont know if you know that but i will be.
7– okay, everyone will know who you are. lets see your amazing, completely amazing. i dont know what it is about you but everytime i look at you i have to smile. you are my absolute best friend.if i were to lose you, i would lose myself, because you have filled everything in me that was so empty before. you changed my life, no doubt about it. never once in my life did i think it was possible to find someone like you & when i did find you, i never thought i would actually GET you. =] i dont know how long we will be this close for, but what you mean to me is indescribable. id do anything for you. please remember that. & please remember i will always love you, always. even if it isnt the same kind of love as it is now; it will always be here. anytime you need it. dont forget that. ever.
8- You, you, gosh, i dont even know how to write about you. all good stuff, thats fur sure. =] some people cant figure how we are friends. & honestly, i cant either; we just click on some odd level. but if i hadnt met you; in the weirdest way might i add; then i would be missing out on getting to know one of the most wonderful person in the world. you have so much potential, but you dont live up to it. which is dissappointing, you could be something great, not that you arent already, just put in a little effort & trust me; you could rule the world. & that would be one fucking fun world. =] i love yah kiddo.
9- Your turn. lets see here; together; we’re crazy. do you know who you are? i admit sometimes you can be a little mean & a little too honest; but that isnt always a bad thing. you have been here for me, and i appreciate that, I APPREICIATE YOU! i have a feeling you arent told that enough. its true a lot of people dont like you; but hun, THEY ARE MISSING OUT! just remember; there is someone out here that loves you more than you can imagine.
10- You know who you are. you know everything about me. way more than i know about myself. i’ve taken you for granted; i’ve done horrible things to you. but you’re still here. you’re always here. sometimes i cant figure how you still love me, but you do, you always will. a lot of the times it seems like you’ve messed up my life, that you’re cruel. but you arent. i’ve always known that. i knew you werent doing those things because you were punishing me; but because you were testing me; making me stronger. i’m sorry if i lie to you, im sorry if i ignore you, im sorry if i push you away, & im sorry if i disobey you. you are more important to me than ANYTHING. absoutley anything. so maybe i should start acting like it. i love you; i swear i do.
11- We met under really werid curcumstances. actually; we havent offically met. maybe my life would be better if i never did meet you. but i guess ill never know & truthfully; i dont want to find out. things happened. they werent your fault & you telling me was the right thing. im very glad you did. no regrets on this end. you are such a nice person, you really are. you know the line between right and wrong & for many of us; that line has faded. dont ever change anything about yourself, please? you’re perfect the way you are. & stay out of trouble. =]
12- This spot is currently reserved. for whom? well im not really sure. change my life; then it will be you.
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13. June 2009 by Katey.
He means so much to me, he don’t understand, the things Id do for him, everything I can. I’m worried about our relationship because we always fight. I’m worried I might not be doing this thing rite. I think it’s love, the feeling is deep inside and every thing needs to be let, with nothing to hide. But then again what is love? Have I ever really been there before..? The feeling for him comes when I’m crying at night, because I really do care. I cry every night after another argument, because I’m so afraid of where every thing went. I don’t want to loose him any more,he’s all I have left. He makes me laugh, he make me smile, and I love seeing him glad. He’s me best friend and my lover and I just want him to know that I do care about him Even though my feelings don’t always show. After another argument I always think of giving up, but then I realize what I have, and think how could I throw away the greatest friendship in the world.
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22. February 2009 by Katey.
Every girl has that certain boy who will mean the world to her. Forever and always. He will make her laugh, smile, fall in love, get mad, go crazy and worst of all cry. But no matter how much he hurts her, one thing will stay the same, the way she feels about him. One day he asked her “How much do you love me?” She replies “Put your head on my heart and feel how fast it beats.” People ask “What’s so special about him?” But, she can’t tell you because she’s afraid if she does you might try to take her place. She could kiss one million boys and it wouldn’t come close to just holding his hand, walking down the street. She sees a nice boy but then takes a minute to think who is constantly on her mind. When she kisses him, there nowhere else she’s rather be, and who she would most like to be with at that particular time, It’s him. When she thinks of him she smiles to much her cheeks ache, she get butterflies to the point she feels sick, her heart beats so fast she could have a heart attack. When someone means as much to you as he does to her, you only think about you and him. She gets angry sometime, not at him. But, because she can’t find the right words or an action big enough to show just how much he really means to her. her and him together, they could make the world jealous. Being in love is not when you think you are. It’s when the people around you can tell. It’s strange thinking you’re going to spend the rest of your life with one person. but, when it’s that certain boy, you cant nothing more then that. So if you love someone tell them because broken hearts are often cause by unspoken words.
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22. November 2008 by Katey.
You’ll always be my one and only,
the one I’ll never forget.
The times we share are always special,
memories, I won’t ever regret.
I care for you deeply
and give to you my heart.
I always knew you could be the one for me,
I fell in love with you, right from the start.
All I want to do is hold you close
and never let you go.
Tell me you’ll stay here with me,
please, don’t tell me, ‘No’.
Your love comforts me at night,
it never leaves me lonely.
You’re all I’ll ever need in life,
you are truly my one and only
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22. November 2008 by Katey.
don’t say forever if you’re not gonna stay. don’t hug me tight then just go away. don’t hold my hand if you’re gonna let it go. don’t say you’ll be there if you’re not gonna show. don’t promise me things you just can’t do. && please don’t make me fall in love with you.♥
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20. November 2008 by Katey.
I’m relatively picky about relationships,
and I’m starting to believe that there’s nobody who is this perfect.
No, I’m not going to lie and say that looks don’t matter, because they do. They’re just not everything.
I think facial hair and overly obsessive people are such a turn off.
I want someone who will make their heart a challenge to get to but will prove to me that they’re worth working for.
I want someone who will listen to what I have to say and not blow it off with an “I’m sorry.”
I want someone that will understand me and my thoughts and eventually know me better than I know myself.
I want someone who will cuddle up right next to me, and just lay there holding me.
I want someone who will hold my hand, even if it’s just across the hallway.
I want someone who will kiss me on my lips, cheak, and forehead.
I want somoene who will wrap their arms around me and just stand there with my head leaning on their chest.
I want someone who will skip down the road with me while holding my hand.
I want someone who I can joke around, and be silly with but be serious as well.
I want someone who will always be honest with me, even when everything is wrong.
I want someone who will tickle and laugh with me.
I want someone who could careless what I look like, even without make-up and straightened hair.
I want someone who won’t be afraid to cry in front of me and/or spill their heart out.
I want someone who will love and care for my personality.
I want someone who will watch movies and be lazy with me.
I want someone who will call me to tell me that they miss me right after we were together.
I want someone who will sleep with me, not for sex, and just cuddle each other to sleep.
I want to be able to wake up to their body next to mine, the sound of their voice, or their kisses.
I want to be able to feel more comfortable around them than I am with anyone else.
I want someone who can just be themselves and not have to worry about their flaws.
I want someone who I can talk to for hours about absolutely nothing.
I want someone that will be able to work things out when things go wrong, and not give up.
I want someone who I can be hyper and act like a total idiot with.
I want someone that will let me take care of them even when they’re not sick.
I want someone that won’t feel greedy when I buy them something.
I want to be able to call them mine and only mine.
I want to be able to mess up their hair and tell them how cute they are.
I want to be able to kiss THEM on the forehead.
I want someone who will let me show them off to the world.
I want someone who I’ll be able to call/text to tell them that I miss and love them.
I want someone who can be serious with me, and be able to show the world that we’re in love.
I want someone who won’t love me any more or less than I love them.
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8. November 2008 by Katey.
Do you remember i love you. Do you remember how much in love we were? Do you remember those times we spent endless hours on the phone? Do you remember singing too me over the phone? Do you remember those long walks we took? Do you remember how i told you i wanted to be with you forever? Do you remember anything we had? Babe we had that little think i like to call love. You have no clue how deeply in love i still am with you. I remember everything about our relationship. When you ended it with me, Do you remember me crying my heart and sould out? i spent endless hours crying over you. I took a razor slicing my wrists too bleed out the pain you left inside me. Do you remember how much in love we were? How much i cried over you? But most importantly, Will you remember me?
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